Flatting this year has been a great learning curve for me. But, one thing that I’ll never get use to is being lonely on the weekends when my flatmates go somewhere else.
This weekend was one of those lonely weekends. Sara left to visit her father for the weekend, Kaitlyn went with her friend somewhere and Anna went to Balclutha for the weekend for some reason. For one, I was actually kind of happy that Sara was gone – no more hearing her and her boyfriend at night. They’re back now and I am left so very jealous and sad, even more so than being alone on the weekend.
Lisa is back as well. I was hoping to finish my dinner before Sara and Lisa got back so I wouldn’t have to see Sara, but they came back earlier than I thought. I hate it, all I want to do is get Sara out of my head but I can’t. I want to try and avoid her, but I can’t. I want her as my girlfriend, but I can’t.
And here we go again, listening to her and her boyfriend in the room below mine. Every, single, night. Even now, I’m still looking for the non-existent flaws in their relationship.
I’ve mainly been just lifting weights, and wasting my time on the internet now. I have been trying to find something to study and prepare for next year, but no luck. So I’m left here just living life.